Ecclesiastes 7:8, 13 –“The end of a matter is better than its beginning; patience is better than pride.” “Observe God’s doing! For who can straighten out what He has twisted.”
I have now been gone from my job for almost three months now. The unkown place that I spoke about in Part II has really kicked in. I absolutley have no idea what I am to do with my life. What is my new normal? All of the old habits and routines that I am so accustomed to doing are slowly being taken away. It's a little scary being in this place. Most people would think that changing something or transitioning to new place would be easy or be done quickly - not true. This is the hardest thing I have had to face and one of the first things in my life I have not run away from. Yahweh again has showed me his perception. According to the world view I was fired - which looks really bad; actually I was removed or sent forth from the world into the Wilderness. The Wilderness is a place of empowerment and a place that Yahweh sends you to. The "unknown" part is two-fold. Yahweh is unkown to me because I don't know him to his full abundance. I have never relied or waitied on HIM to fully work on my heart. The second part of the unkown is "my own knowledge". I don't know myself or let myself walk in my full potential. I have limited myself and placed so many stumbling blocks for myself that I consider the last 32 years of my life completely normal. Wow, what a revelation.
Has Yahweh blessed, provided, and taken care of me? Yes, of course HE has. The difference is now I see HIS point of view. I see that maybe (out of 100%) I only received 10% of his blessing because I thought everything was fine and I felt good. He is showing me that things are much better at 100% than at 10%. I don’t know how many situations could have been better had I seen Yahweh's perspective instead of my own. I cut him off and didn't let him finish. A difficult situation can occur, so we call on HIS name, and he helps us. In our minds we start to feel better (and think that we are ok) so HE stops - not realizing HE is not done and has more for us. Say for example you have a cold and go to the doctor and the doctor prescribes medicine. The doctors orders always state “finish taking all of the medicine, even if you start to feel better,” – this is so you get the full effects of the medicine. Most people stop on days 3-5, instead of going to day 10. We do the same to Yahweh. We stop praying and reading the word anywhere between 1%-30%; so we don’t get the full effect (or 100%) of the attribute(s) of HIM he is trying to give.
I know that there is more for me on this journey and I have only just begun. I need to pay more attention to what HE is doing, not what has been done. Let's see what the next few weeks have in store and how much more of Yahweh's perspective will be revealed to me.
